Being Responsible

Ever since I moved I had to be responsible for myself.
I feel like I've been doing a pretty good job.. but at times it does get hard.
I currently pay for my gas, my food, my rent, my interest on my loans and anything else that comes along.
It doesn't sound like much, but my rent alone cost me almost 500 a month, being a waitress doesn't exactly make the money i need.. well it makes it, but I usually don't have enough to just blow on anything and have a little fun.
But it is life and I am learning RESPONSIBILITY.
I even have to cook for myself.. which isn't a problem. I love to cook, but sometimes I just don't feel like doing it. I run to some fast food restaurant. I have to make sure I eat healthy and not become overweight. ITS my resposibility!
SCHOOL!!!! I probably should have gone to a community college and start off easy. I thought I could really handle this. I did graduate 5th with a pretty high gpa that I don't like ppl to know about. College seemed so easy in my mind. Its been a struggle for me though. Not the actual work, but making myself do it. I'm from a dry county that has nothing to do for young adults. Here in Hattiesburg, I have the option of going out to the club or to the movies or just where ever with friends. I have to completely depress myself by turning down people twenty four seven! Then when I do get a wild hair up my butt I have to make sure I don't turn to alcohol and drive home drunk!! Which I am completely against.
Once again Responsibility!!
Then every single day I have to clean my apartment up, i have to wash dishes.. I have to do laundry twice a week.. It seems like no one else cleans but I'm pretty sure they do lol
It gets to the point I just want to never walk out of my room. Today I cleaned for two hours.. I basically bleached the entire house!
Then I took a nap and went to work..

I know it seems like I'm complaining, but I'm not.. I wanted to stress how much responsibilty I have taken and tell everyone that I'm quite proud of myself.. I'm all grown up in this choatic world and I love it!!!

peace,
dani