I love love love christmas!!
I love buying people that i love presents.. It is the greatest feeling to put a smile on someone's face by giving them something from the heart...
I usually spend a ridiculous amount on my family and my boyfriend..
This year I'll be lucky to buy them christmas cards.. I am absolutely broke.. work is not going as well as it use to. I use to pull at least 300 a weekend not i'm lucky to hit 150.
My car has 600 dollars worth of damage, and no one will help me with it.
Plus I just put out 445 for my rent...
I still need groceries, my medicine, and personal items...
oh yeah and GAS!!!
I really am dreading christmas day when i have nothing to give to anyone, and all the gifts i do get.. I'm returning for cash to pay my january rent and car damages... if i even get that much. I wish I was 21 so i could have a chance at winning the lottery! Or maybe just met a wealthy old man who gives money for just being such a sweet girl :) yeah i'm thinking crazy thoughts now!!!!
Honestly though, crazy is definitely allowed at this point..
well according to my mom it isn't and i'm in desparate need of a therapist which seems to be her answer to every problem that i have lately.
I was thinking though, i could sell some of my clothes and make some quick cash...
then again I heard drug dealers make good money lol
i promise that was a joke i'm completely against all kinds of drugs!!!
when that 18 wheeler knocked my mirror off i was praying to god he'd just hit my entire car so i could file a lawsuit against him lol but it was my fault and it was only my mirror. I also thought about getting a second job but then I would have to give up sleeping... can't do that either..
i just really don't want this christmas to be so bad..
hopefully the money at work starts rolling on in...
Thursday, December 4, 2008
I just wanna go home..
This semester at Southern has been miserable for me..
I have been through so much my mind wants to explode. I have not been happy since August. I have not had time for myself since July.. Its always school, work, school work, sleep eat. No time to just enjoy my life. Not even on holidays. Too much stress with school. It is not even the fact of the level of difficulty of my school work, because I'll admit it is easy.. It is the amount it tends to come in that I can not handle it!
I probably should have started off at a community college to take it way easy and way cheap my first year..
but that still does not solve my life issues..
my family never gets to see me.. i never get to see my family..
my boyfriend is not sure if he wants to be with me.. when all i know for sure in my life is i want to be with him..
my old friends never seem to stop failing me..
an 18 wheeler took off my side mirror..
i woke up this morning to a flat..
i have work tomorrow till 3 in the morning with my math final following at 9 the next morning...
my life is going under and i'm feeling it dreadfully hard..
i want to move back home..
live with my parents..
save all my money..
go to a community college..
heal my relationship..
and most of all i just want to be happy again..
i'm sick of pretending that nothing is wrong with me..
I have been through so much my mind wants to explode. I have not been happy since August. I have not had time for myself since July.. Its always school, work, school work, sleep eat. No time to just enjoy my life. Not even on holidays. Too much stress with school. It is not even the fact of the level of difficulty of my school work, because I'll admit it is easy.. It is the amount it tends to come in that I can not handle it!
I probably should have started off at a community college to take it way easy and way cheap my first year..
but that still does not solve my life issues..
my family never gets to see me.. i never get to see my family..
my boyfriend is not sure if he wants to be with me.. when all i know for sure in my life is i want to be with him..
my old friends never seem to stop failing me..
an 18 wheeler took off my side mirror..
i woke up this morning to a flat..
i have work tomorrow till 3 in the morning with my math final following at 9 the next morning...
my life is going under and i'm feeling it dreadfully hard..
i want to move back home..
live with my parents..
save all my money..
go to a community college..
heal my relationship..
and most of all i just want to be happy again..
i'm sick of pretending that nothing is wrong with me..
The subject of LOVE
So I've been thinking a lot lately about love and all that that subject covers....
Like okay here goes...we waste our times one people that hurt us...we give our hearts over and over again to people that so don't deserve it and by the time we find someone who may be worth giving our heart to we're so screwed up and jaded that there isnothing left to give really and what is left we have so guarded we can't even think about giving up!!!
We get screwed over time and time again that we get to a place where it is impossible to believe that someone one wont cheat on us or stab us in the back or drop us for absolutely NO REASON!!!
I've also come to realize tho that boys get their hearts broken also they can become jaded just like we can & I honestly can say that I never thought that way before my mind was pretty simple:
BOYS=ASS HOLES W/ HEARTS OF STEEL!!!!
But I've met this one boy who is trying desperately to show me that that's not always the case... this is the first time I've been in a relationship where I'm not the only one who has been hurt before!
My whole life I've dated arrogant ass holes that think they are the "shit" and can do whatever they want to the girl they are with because she'll just stand there and take it, they think she'll always be there because they have never had their heart truly broken!
But now I'm with someone who most definitely has felt that uniquely horrible feeling of heart ache! But the heard part is wondering if we will ever truly be whole again...how do you ever let that guard down when its right when you've done it so many times before when it was wrong? how do you learn to trust someone who maybe worth trusting but everyone you trusted before abused it? how do you heal that wound?
I do not know and all those questions are driving me crazy! I've never been the type to just sit back and let be what shall b I always try to figure things out I always want the answers but I guess this is one time where I have to just sit back and enjoy the ride!
GEEZ I guess girls what I'm trying to say is be careful of the ones you let close but be even more careful of the ones whose hearts you break...
Like okay here goes...we waste our times one people that hurt us...we give our hearts over and over again to people that so don't deserve it and by the time we find someone who may be worth giving our heart to we're so screwed up and jaded that there isnothing left to give really and what is left we have so guarded we can't even think about giving up!!!
We get screwed over time and time again that we get to a place where it is impossible to believe that someone one wont cheat on us or stab us in the back or drop us for absolutely NO REASON!!!
I've also come to realize tho that boys get their hearts broken also they can become jaded just like we can & I honestly can say that I never thought that way before my mind was pretty simple:
BOYS=ASS HOLES W/ HEARTS OF STEEL!!!!
But I've met this one boy who is trying desperately to show me that that's not always the case... this is the first time I've been in a relationship where I'm not the only one who has been hurt before!
My whole life I've dated arrogant ass holes that think they are the "shit" and can do whatever they want to the girl they are with because she'll just stand there and take it, they think she'll always be there because they have never had their heart truly broken!
But now I'm with someone who most definitely has felt that uniquely horrible feeling of heart ache! But the heard part is wondering if we will ever truly be whole again...how do you ever let that guard down when its right when you've done it so many times before when it was wrong? how do you learn to trust someone who maybe worth trusting but everyone you trusted before abused it? how do you heal that wound?
I do not know and all those questions are driving me crazy! I've never been the type to just sit back and let be what shall b I always try to figure things out I always want the answers but I guess this is one time where I have to just sit back and enjoy the ride!
GEEZ I guess girls what I'm trying to say is be careful of the ones you let close but be even more careful of the ones whose hearts you break...
What has this world come to??
Ya know this world is going to hell in a hand basket for sure!
I've talked to several people and they definitely agree. Its crazy how bad things have gotten in such a short period of time. I mean just think about what all our generation has been through; some of us Dessert Storm (i think) then 9/11 then the War on Terror started with Iraq then Katrina affected all of us! Its like our whole lives we've just been hit left and right with things we shouldn't even be worrying about yet...I mean yeah our parents had the hippie days and the Vietnam War but they just didn't keep getting hit with reality constantly like we have. Terrorist weren't such a day to day worry. School shootings were unheard of. And playing in your neighborhood and walking everywhere in town ya wanna go was as normal for them as it is for us to have mace in our purse!
Now a days it seems like every one outta 5 kids that go down the road on their bike don't make it back! Girls, young little girls get raped and sexually abused in their own home and the sad thing is reading that in the news paper doesn't shock us nearly as bad as it would our parents when they were our age. Hell most schools have MEDAL DETECTORS when you walk in to school just to make sure you wont kill your fellow students or teachers that day! I mean what the hell?!?! Why is it like this for us? Why do we have to be so gosh dang worried every time we go on an airplane or to a foot ball game or a large event or a mall that we might get blown up!?
But besides all that stuff, the terror and the realities we face now, our generations media has showed us to through our morals out the damn window! Being on birth control by the time your in junior high is considered normal! Cussing and putting down women or people of another race in the lyrics of a song is nothing new for us to hear! Trying drugs and getting drunk is part of growing up! And dressing like a slut or having naked pictures of yourself taken and then shown to other people is just one more thing a teenage girl has to worry about to "fit in"! If its this bad now for us and those few younger kids in our generation now i am scared out of my mind to think of what niece's generation will have to deal with!
Things have gotten out of control... and I've talked to several girls who this blog describes and they honestly think that its normal.
I pray to God things get better!
I've talked to several people and they definitely agree. Its crazy how bad things have gotten in such a short period of time. I mean just think about what all our generation has been through; some of us Dessert Storm (i think) then 9/11 then the War on Terror started with Iraq then Katrina affected all of us! Its like our whole lives we've just been hit left and right with things we shouldn't even be worrying about yet...I mean yeah our parents had the hippie days and the Vietnam War but they just didn't keep getting hit with reality constantly like we have. Terrorist weren't such a day to day worry. School shootings were unheard of. And playing in your neighborhood and walking everywhere in town ya wanna go was as normal for them as it is for us to have mace in our purse!
Now a days it seems like every one outta 5 kids that go down the road on their bike don't make it back! Girls, young little girls get raped and sexually abused in their own home and the sad thing is reading that in the news paper doesn't shock us nearly as bad as it would our parents when they were our age. Hell most schools have MEDAL DETECTORS when you walk in to school just to make sure you wont kill your fellow students or teachers that day! I mean what the hell?!?! Why is it like this for us? Why do we have to be so gosh dang worried every time we go on an airplane or to a foot ball game or a large event or a mall that we might get blown up!?
But besides all that stuff, the terror and the realities we face now, our generations media has showed us to through our morals out the damn window! Being on birth control by the time your in junior high is considered normal! Cussing and putting down women or people of another race in the lyrics of a song is nothing new for us to hear! Trying drugs and getting drunk is part of growing up! And dressing like a slut or having naked pictures of yourself taken and then shown to other people is just one more thing a teenage girl has to worry about to "fit in"! If its this bad now for us and those few younger kids in our generation now i am scared out of my mind to think of what niece's generation will have to deal with!
Things have gotten out of control... and I've talked to several girls who this blog describes and they honestly think that its normal.
I pray to God things get better!
Dumb girls.. we aren't in high school anymore
Going through high school, you find yourself involved in so much crazy drama! It is an absolute ridiculous scene! My senior year I found myself not involved in drama.. I was so thankful. I was about to be in college where everyone is mature and drama is what you do if you are interested in thearte..
I WAS DEFINITELY WRONG!!!
I have seen so much drama at this school, at my work, and definitely within "my friends". At school, girls call you a trick or skank for making guy friends. Just because a guy is a girl's friend does not mean they are sleeping together. It is proven that guys and girls can be just friends. Another thing... stop being jealous! It makes you ugly.
At work, someone is always up to starting something dumb. Ugh so and so took my table, omg she made so much money wonder what she's doing.. omg so and so won't pick my shift up! Dumb girls all around! If someone takes your table go tell them not me! I can't do anything about it, and I will not say anything either. You are wasting time yapping to me.
When a girl is prettier than you and is a better waitress, it doesn't mean she is giving out her number or flirting.. It means her costumers enjoy looking at her more than looking at you! Plus, she probably is a better waitress than you....
What gets me the most!! They allow us to ask off 2 weeks ahead of time.. ask off if you want off.. it is not anyone elses responsibilty to pick up your shifts, so don't sit there saying negative things about that person!
UGH and stupid girls who pretend to be your friend!!!!
If you don't like me or if you like my boyfriend.. how about you don't even pretend to be my friend! You are just getting your self into more trouble...
And don't think that I forget or forgive!!!!
I JUST WISH THESE DUMB GIRLS WOULD JUST GROW UP!!! WE AREN'T IN HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE!!!!!!
I WAS DEFINITELY WRONG!!!
I have seen so much drama at this school, at my work, and definitely within "my friends". At school, girls call you a trick or skank for making guy friends. Just because a guy is a girl's friend does not mean they are sleeping together. It is proven that guys and girls can be just friends. Another thing... stop being jealous! It makes you ugly.
At work, someone is always up to starting something dumb. Ugh so and so took my table, omg she made so much money wonder what she's doing.. omg so and so won't pick my shift up! Dumb girls all around! If someone takes your table go tell them not me! I can't do anything about it, and I will not say anything either. You are wasting time yapping to me.
When a girl is prettier than you and is a better waitress, it doesn't mean she is giving out her number or flirting.. It means her costumers enjoy looking at her more than looking at you! Plus, she probably is a better waitress than you....
What gets me the most!! They allow us to ask off 2 weeks ahead of time.. ask off if you want off.. it is not anyone elses responsibilty to pick up your shifts, so don't sit there saying negative things about that person!
UGH and stupid girls who pretend to be your friend!!!!
If you don't like me or if you like my boyfriend.. how about you don't even pretend to be my friend! You are just getting your self into more trouble...
And don't think that I forget or forgive!!!!
I JUST WISH THESE DUMB GIRLS WOULD JUST GROW UP!!! WE AREN'T IN HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE!!!!!!
Friday, November 21, 2008
READY FOR THANKSGIVING!
So today is the 21 of November!!
Thanksgiving is just around the corner!
Honestly for me its not about the food,
every thanksgiving we spend the day at my grandpa and his wife. (not my grandma and never will be) I never ever get to see him unless its like a super special occasion not including holidays lol..
Let me tell you a little bit about him.
Growing up he was always on cloud nine! Mainly due to drug abuse. Yes he is now a little burnt but he is still wise. He met my grandma, whom I absolutely adore, and had my mom my two aunts and my deceased uncle. Eventually they started fighting and got a divorce. He turned into a super christian person and met this dry lady who is now in a wheel chair. They got married and had my other two aunts. yay!
He lives in slidell, la where he built and designed this huge house. He's like a contractor almost. He mainly does huge expensive hotels like the ritz carlton.
Well, now that he is so godly and all, he likes to pass on his stories of his child hood to persuade us into making the right choices. Now that's his point of the story.. I like them because they are always so funny!
My grandpa is also an amazing cook!! He's been in the crawfish festival in New Orleans and has been on cooking shows. Every time we visit he amazes me but what he creates. I don't eat much of it because i don't eat beef or pork but it still never ceases to amaze me!
Next he feels bad for never seeing us so he slips his grand kids cash! I love money! And I love my grandpa's money a lot!!!!!!
This year he missed my birthday so I should be getting a nice wad of it!!!!!
well I have to run off to an interview now!
peace dani
Thanksgiving is just around the corner!
Honestly for me its not about the food,
every thanksgiving we spend the day at my grandpa and his wife. (not my grandma and never will be) I never ever get to see him unless its like a super special occasion not including holidays lol..
Let me tell you a little bit about him.
Growing up he was always on cloud nine! Mainly due to drug abuse. Yes he is now a little burnt but he is still wise. He met my grandma, whom I absolutely adore, and had my mom my two aunts and my deceased uncle. Eventually they started fighting and got a divorce. He turned into a super christian person and met this dry lady who is now in a wheel chair. They got married and had my other two aunts. yay!
He lives in slidell, la where he built and designed this huge house. He's like a contractor almost. He mainly does huge expensive hotels like the ritz carlton.
Well, now that he is so godly and all, he likes to pass on his stories of his child hood to persuade us into making the right choices. Now that's his point of the story.. I like them because they are always so funny!
My grandpa is also an amazing cook!! He's been in the crawfish festival in New Orleans and has been on cooking shows. Every time we visit he amazes me but what he creates. I don't eat much of it because i don't eat beef or pork but it still never ceases to amaze me!
Next he feels bad for never seeing us so he slips his grand kids cash! I love money! And I love my grandpa's money a lot!!!!!!
This year he missed my birthday so I should be getting a nice wad of it!!!!!
well I have to run off to an interview now!
peace dani
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Being Responsible
Ever since I moved I had to be responsible for myself.
I feel like I've been doing a pretty good job.. but at times it does get hard.
I currently pay for my gas, my food, my rent, my interest on my loans and anything else that comes along.
It doesn't sound like much, but my rent alone cost me almost 500 a month, being a waitress doesn't exactly make the money i need.. well it makes it, but I usually don't have enough to just blow on anything and have a little fun.
But it is life and I am learning RESPONSIBILITY.
I even have to cook for myself.. which isn't a problem. I love to cook, but sometimes I just don't feel like doing it. I run to some fast food restaurant. I have to make sure I eat healthy and not become overweight. ITS my resposibility!
SCHOOL!!!! I probably should have gone to a community college and start off easy. I thought I could really handle this. I did graduate 5th with a pretty high gpa that I don't like ppl to know about. College seemed so easy in my mind. Its been a struggle for me though. Not the actual work, but making myself do it. I'm from a dry county that has nothing to do for young adults. Here in Hattiesburg, I have the option of going out to the club or to the movies or just where ever with friends. I have to completely depress myself by turning down people twenty four seven! Then when I do get a wild hair up my butt I have to make sure I don't turn to alcohol and drive home drunk!! Which I am completely against.
Once again Responsibility!!
Then every single day I have to clean my apartment up, i have to wash dishes.. I have to do laundry twice a week.. It seems like no one else cleans but I'm pretty sure they do lol
It gets to the point I just want to never walk out of my room. Today I cleaned for two hours.. I basically bleached the entire house!
Then I took a nap and went to work..
I know it seems like I'm complaining, but I'm not.. I wanted to stress how much responsibilty I have taken and tell everyone that I'm quite proud of myself.. I'm all grown up in this choatic world and I love it!!!
peace,
dani
I feel like I've been doing a pretty good job.. but at times it does get hard.
I currently pay for my gas, my food, my rent, my interest on my loans and anything else that comes along.
It doesn't sound like much, but my rent alone cost me almost 500 a month, being a waitress doesn't exactly make the money i need.. well it makes it, but I usually don't have enough to just blow on anything and have a little fun.
But it is life and I am learning RESPONSIBILITY.
I even have to cook for myself.. which isn't a problem. I love to cook, but sometimes I just don't feel like doing it. I run to some fast food restaurant. I have to make sure I eat healthy and not become overweight. ITS my resposibility!
SCHOOL!!!! I probably should have gone to a community college and start off easy. I thought I could really handle this. I did graduate 5th with a pretty high gpa that I don't like ppl to know about. College seemed so easy in my mind. Its been a struggle for me though. Not the actual work, but making myself do it. I'm from a dry county that has nothing to do for young adults. Here in Hattiesburg, I have the option of going out to the club or to the movies or just where ever with friends. I have to completely depress myself by turning down people twenty four seven! Then when I do get a wild hair up my butt I have to make sure I don't turn to alcohol and drive home drunk!! Which I am completely against.
Once again Responsibility!!
Then every single day I have to clean my apartment up, i have to wash dishes.. I have to do laundry twice a week.. It seems like no one else cleans but I'm pretty sure they do lol
It gets to the point I just want to never walk out of my room. Today I cleaned for two hours.. I basically bleached the entire house!
Then I took a nap and went to work..
I know it seems like I'm complaining, but I'm not.. I wanted to stress how much responsibilty I have taken and tell everyone that I'm quite proud of myself.. I'm all grown up in this choatic world and I love it!!!
peace,
dani
Friday, October 24, 2008
Hmmm..
Today i'm not really sure what i want to write about. I've been sick since wednesday, and my mind is completely blank..
The weather outside is so horrible! I feel like I live in a freezing cold water puddle. Its digusting.. I hate it.. today is one of those days I just want to move back home and lay in my old bed :( I miss waking up to my loving puppy laying at the end of my bed waiting for me to get up and take her for a stroll.. I miss my mom making me breakfast and kissing me good bye for the day. I hate that I can't see my niece every single day of her life.. I want to be there so bad for all the new things she discovers and the funny situations she concures. I want to be there for my sister. She's a new mom with a not so great husband. Plus she attends Paul Mitchell Hair School. Right now is not the easiest time for her. I might be her little sister, but I was the one who gave her all the advice she needed, and I'm the one who cheered her up at hte end of the day. I was also the only one who could sit there and actually listen to every single word she had to say. I was my mom's little helper. I cleaned every day and cooked every night. My mom was always busy taking care of my dad who is now recovering from colon cancer. She probably misses me so much more than anyone else. Half the time I call everyone is eating cearel for dinner or easy mac. When I actually have time to visit home, I clean the whole time I'm there. MY DAD! He was so sick for a while, and he almost didn't make it. So everyday could be a possible down right depressing day for him. It worries me all the time. I just wish I could at least visit him for five mintues everyday! Just to make sure he knows that I care so much about him! I miss my family so much and I love them so much more..
I know that it is a part of growing up, but I do not like it. I wish I didn't have to go through with it.. I might even move to a community college so I can be closer to home and closer to my family.
You can call me weak but I don't care.. I can't stand not being around them.
PEACE!
DANI
The weather outside is so horrible! I feel like I live in a freezing cold water puddle. Its digusting.. I hate it.. today is one of those days I just want to move back home and lay in my old bed :( I miss waking up to my loving puppy laying at the end of my bed waiting for me to get up and take her for a stroll.. I miss my mom making me breakfast and kissing me good bye for the day. I hate that I can't see my niece every single day of her life.. I want to be there so bad for all the new things she discovers and the funny situations she concures. I want to be there for my sister. She's a new mom with a not so great husband. Plus she attends Paul Mitchell Hair School. Right now is not the easiest time for her. I might be her little sister, but I was the one who gave her all the advice she needed, and I'm the one who cheered her up at hte end of the day. I was also the only one who could sit there and actually listen to every single word she had to say. I was my mom's little helper. I cleaned every day and cooked every night. My mom was always busy taking care of my dad who is now recovering from colon cancer. She probably misses me so much more than anyone else. Half the time I call everyone is eating cearel for dinner or easy mac. When I actually have time to visit home, I clean the whole time I'm there. MY DAD! He was so sick for a while, and he almost didn't make it. So everyday could be a possible down right depressing day for him. It worries me all the time. I just wish I could at least visit him for five mintues everyday! Just to make sure he knows that I care so much about him! I miss my family so much and I love them so much more..
I know that it is a part of growing up, but I do not like it. I wish I didn't have to go through with it.. I might even move to a community college so I can be closer to home and closer to my family.
You can call me weak but I don't care.. I can't stand not being around them.
PEACE!
DANI
Friday, October 17, 2008
The Soon to be Future
I have a very very best friend from picayune. Her name is niki wimbrow. We've been friends for 14 years now. I met her when i was 4 or 5. My parents worked with her parents, so it was a destined friendship.
In December, she is moving up to hattiesburg!!!! I'm so excited! I haven't made any real friends at this school, so to have my bestie move up here is so awesome! What's even better is....
WE'RE GOING TO LIVE TOGETHER!!!!!!!! we are going to have so much fun together! we never really fight either! hopefully it'll stay that way lol but i think it will.
She came up not to long ago in fact. we spent the whole day together looking at halloween costumes.. then we looked at apartments. everything i liked she liked. sometimes it amazes me that i still have her as a friend. these days girls aren't the easiest people to be friends with. we did get into one big fight, and it caused us not to be friends for almost half a year.. it was horrible! i was so upset! come to find out she was too.. we made up like three times :) we both felt so bad about what we did to each other.
now we're together as much as possible! duh we're best friends!!!
she's coming up monday to come hang out with me!
well i don't have much time or much more to say so i'm just going to end it at this...
NIKI WIMBROW AND DANIELLE RODRIGUEZ BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!!!
PEACE!
In December, she is moving up to hattiesburg!!!! I'm so excited! I haven't made any real friends at this school, so to have my bestie move up here is so awesome! What's even better is....
WE'RE GOING TO LIVE TOGETHER!!!!!!!! we are going to have so much fun together! we never really fight either! hopefully it'll stay that way lol but i think it will.
She came up not to long ago in fact. we spent the whole day together looking at halloween costumes.. then we looked at apartments. everything i liked she liked. sometimes it amazes me that i still have her as a friend. these days girls aren't the easiest people to be friends with. we did get into one big fight, and it caused us not to be friends for almost half a year.. it was horrible! i was so upset! come to find out she was too.. we made up like three times :) we both felt so bad about what we did to each other.
now we're together as much as possible! duh we're best friends!!!
she's coming up monday to come hang out with me!
well i don't have much time or much more to say so i'm just going to end it at this...
NIKI WIMBROW AND DANIELLE RODRIGUEZ BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!!!
PEACE!
Friday, October 3, 2008
What to do with life...
Before I came to Southern I had my mind set to be a radiologist.
Not the tech, I want to be the actual doctor who studies all cancer and gives shots in the spinal cord. I want to be the one who reads the complex pictures and can tell the tiniest problem. 12 years of school.. but i wanted it so bad! Then i came to southern and it completely flipped my mind upside down. Southern has nothing to offer me accept for my basic and a horrible schedule.. They put me in bio 110 because of course going into the medical field I'll need a bunch of biology classes and biochemistry.
HANDS DOWN I HATE MY BIO 110 CLASS!
My teacher is too smart to be teaching it.. her brain thinks faster than she can speak. Which is awesome for her! but completely sucks for me.. Biology was simple in high school. Biology 2 was even easier.. and a lot of things she talks about i learned... back in 9th and 10th grade.. so of course i've forgotten bits and pieces. She goes into so much detail and just hops right on the bunny trail off into her lil land of bio and i can't tell when its actually something i'm suppose to be learning or if she is getting a lil too excited about the topic.
Now she says we can ask her questions after class.. well when the line is 20 ppl long all of which have about 10 questions, i just don't have time to wait. Then there's this bio tutor. I can't fit her in between school work and feeding myself.. well if i went anorexic i could but i rather eat than fully understand something that i'm not even enjoying!
Right now i have a 95 in her class.. according to her grading scale that is not even close to an A its a low B!!!!!
so i think the radiology field is out the question..
math is where my heart is! i love it and i'm a whiz at it! i'm flying through that class! if i wasn't paying for i wouldn't attend class except to ask questions and take test.. then i'd do all my online work. easy as pie!!!
So i was thinking i could become something dealing with math.. but i talked to my all knowing father. He informed me that finding a job dealing with math and actually making the money i want to make is nearly impossible unless i get a high up government level job.. which i don't know anyone who could pull those strings for me!!!!
what to do? what to do?
If you have any suggestions let me know! I'll gladly listen to anything!!!!
peace. dani.
Not the tech, I want to be the actual doctor who studies all cancer and gives shots in the spinal cord. I want to be the one who reads the complex pictures and can tell the tiniest problem. 12 years of school.. but i wanted it so bad! Then i came to southern and it completely flipped my mind upside down. Southern has nothing to offer me accept for my basic and a horrible schedule.. They put me in bio 110 because of course going into the medical field I'll need a bunch of biology classes and biochemistry.
HANDS DOWN I HATE MY BIO 110 CLASS!
My teacher is too smart to be teaching it.. her brain thinks faster than she can speak. Which is awesome for her! but completely sucks for me.. Biology was simple in high school. Biology 2 was even easier.. and a lot of things she talks about i learned... back in 9th and 10th grade.. so of course i've forgotten bits and pieces. She goes into so much detail and just hops right on the bunny trail off into her lil land of bio and i can't tell when its actually something i'm suppose to be learning or if she is getting a lil too excited about the topic.
Now she says we can ask her questions after class.. well when the line is 20 ppl long all of which have about 10 questions, i just don't have time to wait. Then there's this bio tutor. I can't fit her in between school work and feeding myself.. well if i went anorexic i could but i rather eat than fully understand something that i'm not even enjoying!
Right now i have a 95 in her class.. according to her grading scale that is not even close to an A its a low B!!!!!
so i think the radiology field is out the question..
math is where my heart is! i love it and i'm a whiz at it! i'm flying through that class! if i wasn't paying for i wouldn't attend class except to ask questions and take test.. then i'd do all my online work. easy as pie!!!
So i was thinking i could become something dealing with math.. but i talked to my all knowing father. He informed me that finding a job dealing with math and actually making the money i want to make is nearly impossible unless i get a high up government level job.. which i don't know anyone who could pull those strings for me!!!!
what to do? what to do?
If you have any suggestions let me know! I'll gladly listen to anything!!!!
peace. dani.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
THE BOYFRIEND
SORRY THIS PIC IS SIDEWAYS..
HEY GUYS!
I'M WRITING THIS BLOG TO INTRODUCE YA'LL TO SOMEONE WHO HAS HELPS ME STAY SANE AND SUPPORTS ALL MY GOOD IDEAS LOL
AND I TOLD CONNIE I'D WRITE ABOUT HIM...
HIS NAME IS JEFFERY CHANCE EFFLER
HE LETS ME CALL HIM CHANC-E-POO IN PUBLIC :)
HE IS 23.. NO HE IS NOT TOO OLD FOR ME I'M 19..
I'VE BEEN IN LOVE WITH CHANCE SINCE I WAS 8 LOL AND WE STARTED DATING WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO TURN 18. ITS BEEN OFFICIAL FOR A YEAR AND ALMOST THREE MONTHS..
WE HAVE DONE FABULOUS.. OF COURSE WE FIGHT BUT HELLO I'M A TEENAGE GIRL..
I GET MAD SOMETIMES LOL
BUT ANY WAYS CHANCE IS KINDA LIKE MY BACK BONE.. WHEN I STRESS OUT I CALL HIM AND HE TELLS ME HOW WONDERFUL I AM AND HOW PROUD HE IS THAT I'M IN COLLEGE.. I CALL HIM EVERYDAY BEFORE AND AFTER CLASS..
EVERY MORNING HE TELLS ME TO GO KICK SOME ENGLISH/MATH/WHATEVER CLASSES A$$.. THEN AFTER HE TELLS ME I BET YOU SHOWED EVERYONE HOW SMART YOU ARE OR WERE THEY IMPRESSED BY YOUR INTELLIGENCE LOL
I CALLED HIM ONE DAY CRYING CUZ I MADE A 78 ON MY ANTHRO TEST!
HE SAID I HOPE THOSE ARE TEARS OF JOY THAT YOU ACTUALLY PASSED IT AND EVERYONE WHO FAILED IT IS SO JEALOUS..
HE MAKES ME LAUGH ALL THE TIME.
HE DOES THE SMALLEST THINGS THAT I WOULDN'T EXPECT.
LIKE HE'LL ALWAYS MAKE SURE I HAVE A BLANKET CUZ I'M ALWAYS FREEZING.
HE MAKE SURE WHOEVER IS COOKING MAKES SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T CONTAIN RED MEAT OR PORK CUZ I DON'T EAT IT..
HE DOESN'T ALLOW PPL WHO SMOKE AROUND ME CUZ IT MAKES ME CHOKE..
HE ALWAYS LETS ME GET THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE BED EVEN THO ITS HIS FAV TOO..
HE'LL STEAL MY CAR AND WASH IT THEN TELL ME HE BOUGHT ME A NEW CAR LOL..
HE OPENS MY DOOR FOR ME..
HE MOVES MY CHAIR FOR ME..
HE STEALS LEMONS OUT OF OTHER PPL'S DRINKS CUZ HE KNOWS I LIKE TWO IN EACH GLASS OF WATER..
HE REALLY DOES SO MANY MORE THINGS THAN THAT..
HE BOUGHT ME THIS LAP TOP I'M TYPING ON FOR CHRISTMAS..
HE BOUGHT ME A NAVIGATION SYSTEM SO I WOULDN'T GET LOST IN HATTIESBURG..
AND HE BOUGHT ME A SWIFFER VAC TO CLEAN MY APARTMENT LOL.
I LOVE HIM I SWEAR!
AND OTHER PPL SEEM TO LIKE HIM TO EXCEPT SOMETIMES HE TALKS YOUR HEAD OFF.. BUT I LIKE IT THAT MEANS I TALK LESS!
WELL I'M ABOUT TO GO CALL HIM CUZ NOW I CAN'T GET HIM OUTTA MY HEAD..
SEE YA'LL TUESDAY!
PEACE.
DANI.
HEY GUYS!
I'M WRITING THIS BLOG TO INTRODUCE YA'LL TO SOMEONE WHO HAS HELPS ME STAY SANE AND SUPPORTS ALL MY GOOD IDEAS LOL
AND I TOLD CONNIE I'D WRITE ABOUT HIM...
HIS NAME IS JEFFERY CHANCE EFFLER
HE LETS ME CALL HIM CHANC-E-POO IN PUBLIC :)
HE IS 23.. NO HE IS NOT TOO OLD FOR ME I'M 19..
I'VE BEEN IN LOVE WITH CHANCE SINCE I WAS 8 LOL AND WE STARTED DATING WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO TURN 18. ITS BEEN OFFICIAL FOR A YEAR AND ALMOST THREE MONTHS..
WE HAVE DONE FABULOUS.. OF COURSE WE FIGHT BUT HELLO I'M A TEENAGE GIRL..
I GET MAD SOMETIMES LOL
BUT ANY WAYS CHANCE IS KINDA LIKE MY BACK BONE.. WHEN I STRESS OUT I CALL HIM AND HE TELLS ME HOW WONDERFUL I AM AND HOW PROUD HE IS THAT I'M IN COLLEGE.. I CALL HIM EVERYDAY BEFORE AND AFTER CLASS..
EVERY MORNING HE TELLS ME TO GO KICK SOME ENGLISH/MATH/WHATEVER CLASSES A$$.. THEN AFTER HE TELLS ME I BET YOU SHOWED EVERYONE HOW SMART YOU ARE OR WERE THEY IMPRESSED BY YOUR INTELLIGENCE LOL
I CALLED HIM ONE DAY CRYING CUZ I MADE A 78 ON MY ANTHRO TEST!
HE SAID I HOPE THOSE ARE TEARS OF JOY THAT YOU ACTUALLY PASSED IT AND EVERYONE WHO FAILED IT IS SO JEALOUS..
HE MAKES ME LAUGH ALL THE TIME.
HE DOES THE SMALLEST THINGS THAT I WOULDN'T EXPECT.
LIKE HE'LL ALWAYS MAKE SURE I HAVE A BLANKET CUZ I'M ALWAYS FREEZING.
HE MAKE SURE WHOEVER IS COOKING MAKES SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T CONTAIN RED MEAT OR PORK CUZ I DON'T EAT IT..
HE DOESN'T ALLOW PPL WHO SMOKE AROUND ME CUZ IT MAKES ME CHOKE..
HE ALWAYS LETS ME GET THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE BED EVEN THO ITS HIS FAV TOO..
HE'LL STEAL MY CAR AND WASH IT THEN TELL ME HE BOUGHT ME A NEW CAR LOL..
HE OPENS MY DOOR FOR ME..
HE MOVES MY CHAIR FOR ME..
HE STEALS LEMONS OUT OF OTHER PPL'S DRINKS CUZ HE KNOWS I LIKE TWO IN EACH GLASS OF WATER..
HE REALLY DOES SO MANY MORE THINGS THAN THAT..
HE BOUGHT ME THIS LAP TOP I'M TYPING ON FOR CHRISTMAS..
HE BOUGHT ME A NAVIGATION SYSTEM SO I WOULDN'T GET LOST IN HATTIESBURG..
AND HE BOUGHT ME A SWIFFER VAC TO CLEAN MY APARTMENT LOL.
I LOVE HIM I SWEAR!
AND OTHER PPL SEEM TO LIKE HIM TO EXCEPT SOMETIMES HE TALKS YOUR HEAD OFF.. BUT I LIKE IT THAT MEANS I TALK LESS!
WELL I'M ABOUT TO GO CALL HIM CUZ NOW I CAN'T GET HIM OUTTA MY HEAD..
SEE YA'LL TUESDAY!
PEACE.
DANI.
Friday, September 19, 2008
roooomies!!!
My Roomates... Lets get one thing straight first off, i live off campus..i don't know dorm names or where any are located...i live at boardwalk at dewberry landing..its alright to a certain extent.. everything breaks... EVERYTHING!!!!i would definitely recommend not living here!my main issue is my roomates..my FIRST set of roomates apparently didn't work out because i did note them as the first..they hated me! i was living with 2 sisters and the older sisters best friend! all of which had serious boyfriends that i think 2 of which might have been on the not so straight path..and all 6 of them adored each other!well here comes dani.. not knowing any of them.. they ignored me.. they cooked big dinners and never invited me.. they chose where i put my kitchen stuff for me.. and they suggested a new boyfriend and a new job!!!!excuse me but just because my boyfriend is an actual man not a lil sissy boy and i do like to have fun every now and then doesn't mean i'm satan.. i can drink if i want to i can work at a bar if i want to and my boyfriend is allowed to be 5 years older than me!!! they had the nerve to call security on my boyfriend, who they knew was staying with me, while i was at work...come on grow up!!!!!ugh!! i have so many adjectives flying throughout my mind about those ppl that are way to vulgar to be typing on a class assignment!!!!last said about them... i'm so wonderfully glad you are out of my freaking life!!!!my NEW roomates!!!ever heard that expression girls just wanna have fun!!well it constantly goes down in my apartment now! i love these girls and they love me.. and we are all pretty good students! my oldest one even helps me with my school work and gives me advice! i'm so lucky to be living with them!! by the way they all can cook!!!!!!!oh yeah they like the boyfriend too!!!awesomeness!!!!!!future mental note... meet your roomates before you move in with them!!! it could cost you 200 dollars and a bit of insanity.
peace.dani.
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peace.dani.
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Friday, September 12, 2008
MY DAY... DOWNHILL
SO TODAY IS FRIDAY..
A HORRIBLE DAY TO ME! I HAVE AN 8 O'CLOCK CLASS.. THAT I DIDN'T ATTEND THIS LOVELY MORNING BECAUSE I'M AMAZING BLACKBERRY DECIDED IT WASN'T GOING TO WAKE ME!!! F.Y.I MY FRIDAY 8 O'CLOCK CLASS IS MY BIO LAB! IDK WHAT THE FREAK I'M GOING TO DO SHE TOLD US OUR FIRST DAY DON'T MISS THIS CLASS ITS HARD TO MAKE UP... WELL WAY TO GO ME! I'VE ACCOMPLISHED THE ONE THING SHE ASKED US NOT TO DO!
WELL AFTER MY LOVELY FREAKING LAB I ATTEND MY BIO CLASS... WELL NOT TODAY SUCKERS I MANAGED TO SLEEP PAST THAT CLASS TOO!! WOOT WOOT GO DANI! NOW BIO IS EASY BUT HER TEST AREN'T AND I HAVE ONE COMING UP!! SO NOW IF SHE WENT OVER SOMETHING THAT MIGHT BE ON THE TEST AND NOT ON THE NOTES I HAVE MISSED IMPORTANT INFO AND I'LL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF.
I'M PAYING FOR MY EDUCATION! NOT MY PARENTS NOT MY GRANDPARENTS NOT MY RICH GREAT GRANDMOTHER NOT THE GOVERNMENT NOT A SCHOLARSHIP.. APPARENTLY YOUR STILL CONSIDERED DUMB TO USM IF YOU HAVE A 25 ON YOUR ACT.. ANYWAYS I'M FREAKING PAYING FOR MY SCHOOLING!
I DON'T LIKE TO WASTE MONEY WITH THE EXCEPTION OF CLOTHES.. I WANNA COME OUTTA THIS D*MN SCHOOL WITH FREAKING A'S NOT JUST ONE OR TWO BUT I WANT ALL 5 OF THEM SUCKERS! IF I DON'T GET IT I'LL BE SO BEYOND PISSED THAT I MIGHT CRY THAT'S RIGHT I CRY WHEN I'M PISSED OFF! AND YOU CAN TELL I'M MAD CAUSE I'M TYPING FAST AND FORGETTING MY D*MN PERIODS!!!!!
LIFE IS SH*TTY TODAY AND
AT 7 I GO INTO WORK AND I WON'T BE GETTING OUT TILL AROUND 3 SO THE POOP JUS KEEPS ON PILING UP
WOOT WOOT!!!
PEACE!
DANI
A HORRIBLE DAY TO ME! I HAVE AN 8 O'CLOCK CLASS.. THAT I DIDN'T ATTEND THIS LOVELY MORNING BECAUSE I'M AMAZING BLACKBERRY DECIDED IT WASN'T GOING TO WAKE ME!!! F.Y.I MY FRIDAY 8 O'CLOCK CLASS IS MY BIO LAB! IDK WHAT THE FREAK I'M GOING TO DO SHE TOLD US OUR FIRST DAY DON'T MISS THIS CLASS ITS HARD TO MAKE UP... WELL WAY TO GO ME! I'VE ACCOMPLISHED THE ONE THING SHE ASKED US NOT TO DO!
WELL AFTER MY LOVELY FREAKING LAB I ATTEND MY BIO CLASS... WELL NOT TODAY SUCKERS I MANAGED TO SLEEP PAST THAT CLASS TOO!! WOOT WOOT GO DANI! NOW BIO IS EASY BUT HER TEST AREN'T AND I HAVE ONE COMING UP!! SO NOW IF SHE WENT OVER SOMETHING THAT MIGHT BE ON THE TEST AND NOT ON THE NOTES I HAVE MISSED IMPORTANT INFO AND I'LL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF.
I'M PAYING FOR MY EDUCATION! NOT MY PARENTS NOT MY GRANDPARENTS NOT MY RICH GREAT GRANDMOTHER NOT THE GOVERNMENT NOT A SCHOLARSHIP.. APPARENTLY YOUR STILL CONSIDERED DUMB TO USM IF YOU HAVE A 25 ON YOUR ACT.. ANYWAYS I'M FREAKING PAYING FOR MY SCHOOLING!
I DON'T LIKE TO WASTE MONEY WITH THE EXCEPTION OF CLOTHES.. I WANNA COME OUTTA THIS D*MN SCHOOL WITH FREAKING A'S NOT JUST ONE OR TWO BUT I WANT ALL 5 OF THEM SUCKERS! IF I DON'T GET IT I'LL BE SO BEYOND PISSED THAT I MIGHT CRY THAT'S RIGHT I CRY WHEN I'M PISSED OFF! AND YOU CAN TELL I'M MAD CAUSE I'M TYPING FAST AND FORGETTING MY D*MN PERIODS!!!!!
LIFE IS SH*TTY TODAY AND
AT 7 I GO INTO WORK AND I WON'T BE GETTING OUT TILL AROUND 3 SO THE POOP JUS KEEPS ON PILING UP
WOOT WOOT!!!
PEACE!
DANI
Thursday, September 4, 2008
VISITORs!!
Today is an extremely exciting day for me! I'm having visitors! They are two of my favorite people in this world. I couldn't ask for better guest!
Today my older sister Brooke and my 4month little niece, Kennedy, is staying with me!!! I've missed them so much! Its my first niece/nephew, and she's only been here for 4 months! How do they expect me not to want to see my little princess everyday!
i love this kid^"
Today my older sister Brooke and my 4month little niece, Kennedy, is staying with me!!! I've missed them so much! Its my first niece/nephew, and she's only been here for 4 months! How do they expect me not to want to see my little princess everyday!
i love this kid^"
Anyways, they arrived this afternoon! I ran down three flights of stairs.. hello not easy!! (but definitely worth it) I snatched Kennedy out of her car seat and gave her billions of kisses! She probably thinks I'm absolutely crazy. After my lovely hellos and hugs, we went back up to my apartment and played!!!!!!
Currently my favorite thing in the world is making that baby laugh! It is incredibly cute, and it makes me just wanna eat her up! Her giggles basically make my world go round. We played for twenty minutes with all of her toys. Then she looked up and noticed my gigantic mirror. Oh course she wanted to play with it.. if there is any possible way of playing with a mirror, she was determined. I snatched her up and danced (as Quincy would say) my arse off! She giggled so loud and threw her tiny arms around! We danced for an hour, and I only stopped because I gained a headache in the process.
Now it was time for dinner..Brooke and I had spaghetti, and Kennedy had a yummy bottle! Then it was nap time for Kennedy so we walked around the room. She fell asleep in my arms... if you ever had this experience, you know it really is something special. I laid her down for bed.. Brooke laid down. I wrote this blog..
Now I'm about to go to bed though.
till next time!!
hope you enjoyed!
Currently my favorite thing in the world is making that baby laugh! It is incredibly cute, and it makes me just wanna eat her up! Her giggles basically make my world go round. We played for twenty minutes with all of her toys. Then she looked up and noticed my gigantic mirror. Oh course she wanted to play with it.. if there is any possible way of playing with a mirror, she was determined. I snatched her up and danced (as Quincy would say) my arse off! She giggled so loud and threw her tiny arms around! We danced for an hour, and I only stopped because I gained a headache in the process.
Now it was time for dinner..Brooke and I had spaghetti, and Kennedy had a yummy bottle! Then it was nap time for Kennedy so we walked around the room. She fell asleep in my arms... if you ever had this experience, you know it really is something special. I laid her down for bed.. Brooke laid down. I wrote this blog..
Now I'm about to go to bed though.
till next time!!
hope you enjoyed!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
School so far..
I attend the University of Southern Mississippi, and August 20, was my first day of USM life. For most people, the first day of college is exciting, and they feel all grown up. As for my first day, it was not anything close to either feeling. In fact, I felt like a complete fool for not attending a tiny community college close to home.
My first day I had to attend my Biology class at 11 o'clock. I had already been told that parking was outrageous at USM, so I cleverly planned ahead. I left my apartment at 10:30. I arrived at the campus at 10:37, and it hit me so hard. I figured out that everyone else who had an 11 o'clock class also decided to leave thirty minutes early. Every single space towards the front of campus was jammed packed. I drove around for fifteen minutes. Then at this time I pulled out of the grown-up "front" I put on.
I broke down in tears and dialed mommy's cell. Of course since I am the baby of the family, mommy calmed me down and helped me out. She led me a parking lot at the very --and I do mean VERY VERY VERY-- back of campus. The time was now 10:57. I had three minutes to get from the back of campus all the way to the front. Don't get me wrong, I love a challenge but not an impossible one. In my very cheap Forever21 flip flops, I took off in a sprint. (F.Y.I. everyone was definitely staring). I could feel the thong of the flip flop rubbing my poor toes to blisters. It stung like peeling out on my toes and pouring peroxide on top would feel. I arrived at my Biology class at 11:13.
Late on the first day of school for my first class. I am just so amazing like that. Of course, I walk in and the teacher just stares at me. Which she was probably thinking "oh great another slacker and I can soon torture with my long lecture on attendance". Which she was definitely wrong. I am far from a slacker; I just have the worst luck on the face of this earth! Go DANI!!! Luckily, I wasn't the last to arrive at class. So whoever that poor little sad loser was... THANK YOU for showing that you are a slacker and could not arrive to class no sooner than 11:15!!!! I know that is a little mean, but it was the first day of school. Of course, I was going to root for some one to screw up more than I had! I sat through that Biology class like I was so unstoppable that is in the sense that I couldn't stop fidgeting for anything. Class is finally over, and I start my long journey back to my vehicle. Get in. Drive off. Get home. Go to bed.
Yes it was still in the afternoon, but I had just went through the worst two hours of my life. It is now August 26, and thankfully it's been okay. Hopefully, it will still at least okay.
My first day I had to attend my Biology class at 11 o'clock. I had already been told that parking was outrageous at USM, so I cleverly planned ahead. I left my apartment at 10:30. I arrived at the campus at 10:37, and it hit me so hard. I figured out that everyone else who had an 11 o'clock class also decided to leave thirty minutes early. Every single space towards the front of campus was jammed packed. I drove around for fifteen minutes. Then at this time I pulled out of the grown-up "front" I put on.
I broke down in tears and dialed mommy's cell. Of course since I am the baby of the family, mommy calmed me down and helped me out. She led me a parking lot at the very --and I do mean VERY VERY VERY-- back of campus. The time was now 10:57. I had three minutes to get from the back of campus all the way to the front. Don't get me wrong, I love a challenge but not an impossible one. In my very cheap Forever21 flip flops, I took off in a sprint. (F.Y.I. everyone was definitely staring). I could feel the thong of the flip flop rubbing my poor toes to blisters. It stung like peeling out on my toes and pouring peroxide on top would feel. I arrived at my Biology class at 11:13.
Late on the first day of school for my first class. I am just so amazing like that. Of course, I walk in and the teacher just stares at me. Which she was probably thinking "oh great another slacker and I can soon torture with my long lecture on attendance". Which she was definitely wrong. I am far from a slacker; I just have the worst luck on the face of this earth! Go DANI!!! Luckily, I wasn't the last to arrive at class. So whoever that poor little sad loser was... THANK YOU for showing that you are a slacker and could not arrive to class no sooner than 11:15!!!! I know that is a little mean, but it was the first day of school. Of course, I was going to root for some one to screw up more than I had! I sat through that Biology class like I was so unstoppable that is in the sense that I couldn't stop fidgeting for anything. Class is finally over, and I start my long journey back to my vehicle. Get in. Drive off. Get home. Go to bed.
Yes it was still in the afternoon, but I had just went through the worst two hours of my life. It is now August 26, and thankfully it's been okay. Hopefully, it will still at least okay.
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